Career struggle

I'm nearly 21. I've been out of school for 2 whole years. I've done a year of a course I hated, had a son and now I'm finding myself still none the wiser about what I want to do for the rest of my life! 

Part of me feels I would be happier in a more artistic job.. Make up artistry? 

Then I think, well, I wouldn't mind being a counsellor for young people who find themselves struggling like I have at some points in my life.  

Or do I want to be a secondary school teacher? 

Nurse?

Something in I.T? 

I seem to get excited about things and change my mind so fast. 

After just one year of college I found it was so hard and thinking of doing a 3-4 year course right now, with a child, makes me cringe! I don't think I could do it! I'm so not academic it's crazy. I hate the sight of books and hate taking notes and learning off things to just slash it all out on an exam and forget it a day later. I hate it. It doesn't excite me. But what choice do I have really?! I can't not work for the rest of my life. 

I'll let you know if I make up my mind any time soon

MommaKatie xo. 

Brother Immigrating

So this morning at half 3 the whole family said goodbye to my only brother Ian. He's gone to Autralia on a one year visa with the hopes of getting sponsorship to stay on longer within that year.
Now this isnt the first time he's gone for such a long period of time. About 4-5 years ago he did a year in Oz and then a year in New Zealand. This made it all the harder to say goodbye this time around, cause we knew how much we would miss him and how going away for a year could turn into a much longer period of time.
Its especially hard at times like Christmas. He missed 3 Christmas's the las time he was away and they were never the same. I was practically an only child!

It is probably the best thing he could do for himself though! He loves working in construction and has a lot of carpentry abilities and is an amazing stone mason, well not one who has trained full term, but a course done or not, his work speaks for itself!!
There's no work is the areas he likes here in Ireland. Theres no work anywhere here really! Only in I.T it seems and that wasnt him. I had to show him how to use facebook once upon a time.
It's sad that people have to go so far from their family and friends just to be able to find a job in something they enjoy.. and not just a job at a call centre or stacking shelves.

As hard as it is for us, and especially for him, not getting to see Rian's first birthday, I do wish him all the best and hope he doesnt find himself back here, or in any trouble anytime soon!

These things just have to be done. :'(

MommaKatie xo.

First toot!!!

Rían got his first tooth in the last few days! It's just popped up out of his gum! It's the cutest thing ever! It makes his smile all the more adorable!! :-) 

And the best part is, he has only had a few cranky moments.. Especially one day last week but he slept a lot that day, so it wasn't anything major! Poor pet! 

Rían has a new cousin too! Well my first cousin had a baby and he is 7.5 months younger than Rían. We all went to see him, Rían ignored him completely! 

Nicholas was only a few days old when we saw him and oh my god, he is TINY compared to Rían! He was the same weight as Rían when he was born, but I think Nicholas has way smaller feet and hands than Rían did.. But I don't know.. I've forgotten him being that small and feeble! You also forget how long they sleep haha! 

That's the latest update on Rían! He's growing so so fast it's exciting but scary too.. He will never be this small again! 

MommaKatie xo. 

VOTE FOR ME PLEASE

Everyone PLEASE vote for Rian!!!!

To win The Baby of the Year 2014 and be in with the chance to win 5,000 please vote for Rian. You can vote once a minute so keep on voting here:

VOTE FOR ME <-- click here

I dont just want to win the money, even though that would be great to add to Rian's college/car fund (I dont plan on pushing him into college if he doesnt want to!)
It would also be a great accomplishment. People are always saying how adorable he is and I have been told loads of times to enter him in competitions! :) This one is with The Sunday World.

Please vote and thank you from Rian!! :)

MommaKatie xo.

OOTD

I cropped a lot of this pic so I'm guessing thats why its crap quality! 

Anyways!

Powder pink crop jumper/top- Topshop (sale)

High waisted grey jeans - Topshop 

Matt black leather sandals- Birkenstock

I love the textured patterns to this jumper! It's so comfy and light!

High waisted jeans are great for making us girls with NO asses look like we got a little junk in the trunk!! :P 

However if you do have a big posterior they can make it look HUGE.. Sorry haha

Minimal make-up and hair styling today! So tired! Need to go to the Doctor to get my bloods done soon! There's no way this tiredness/weakness is normal! I have had low iron levels all my life so unless they have dropped to ZERO there must be something else going on! :/

Rian just woken up from his nap right now! His tshirt says ''Little man'' on it! It's from Next Baby! :)

I got most of what I'm wearing today in Dublin and now i realise I never did a Haul from Dublin blog yet! I'll get working on that soon! Ciao! 

MommaKatie xo.

7 months old

Rían is 7 months and 2 weeks old!! It's been a busy 2 weeks so I've only gotten around to doing this update now!

Here he is! A little scamp getting bigger and bolder by the day!! I miss him being a small baby but seeing him growing and changing everyday is great too! 

Rian now sleeps 12-13 hours in his own cot, in his own bedroom! :) It's great! I get my room back and better sleep for both of us! I do miss him coming into my bed though! wah! :( but I know its for the better.

He still eats what he did when he was six months more or less. He does get a more textured dinner though, made by the same brand as always! He nibbles on slices of soft pears and liga too though! He loves his fruit!

He is in size 6-9 mostly however some items have been as big as 12 months! But like Ive said all along.. It really depends on the brand/style of clothing! Dungarees always have to be a bigger than usual size! Cause of his long torso! :)

New things:
He has been sitting up by himself a lot longer than last month, hes kind of finding his balance!
He is reaching out a lot more and protests if he cant get something he see's and wants haha!
That is just it too.. he is crying for things now.. He has finally realised if he cries he will more than likely get his own way! Like all babies do! :)

I still dont know how long or how much Rian weighs and I havnt known since he was 4 months old. His next checkup isnt until he is 8 months old. He will be weighed at that! His development will be checked too just to make sure, although I'm certain he is just fine!
I do have a small concern about his arm strength.. He doesnt seem to pull himself up unaided and he always gets his arms caught underneath him when he rolls over and it frustrates him.
A friend also was telling me abou their 8 month old nephew who is now pulling himself up in his cot in the mornings and starting crawling.. Neither of which Rian will even attempt to do! So I will be mentioning that. I am aware all babies develope differently at different rates but I will mention it to be safe!

Here are a few more pictures of the small man during his 6-7th month on earth! :)

Out enjoying the first warm, sunny day of the year! 

In his new big boy car seat!! :-) 

Loves watching people coming and going from the sofa! :-) 

That's it now.. Until next month! Bye! :)

MommaKatie xo.

Weekend in Dublin!

So I'm not actually spending a full weekend in Dublin! Myself and my mother came up early Friday and leave again late Saturday but this will be the first time I'm away from Rían for more than one night!! I already miss him so much and Friday isn't even over! 

I see other babies his age and just long to see his happy little face! Love him so much!! 

Anyway we came up to get some shopping done.. I wasn't too sure what I was looking for.. I knew I needed jeans and shoes and of course some new Alex and ani! 

Today I got Rían loads of stuff and myself a pair of high waisted jeans and crop top in river island! I'll do a blog post showing everything I got when I get home! 

Here's what I wore today! 

Cardigan- primark 

Top- New look

Jeans- primark 

Shoes- toms in schuh 

Bracelets- Alex and ani! 

We are staying in The Morgan hotel it's very pretty kinda funky! 

Reception is a big crazy looking! There's a great cocktail bar too! Unfortunetely I won't be sampling any!! Wah! 

I'm going to go and try and sleep now! 

This hotel is located in the middle of temple bar! and it's Friday night! God help us!! 

Goodnight,

MommaKatie xo. 

Tough Time

So I havnt blogged all last week. Me and my family had an awful rollarcoaster emotional week.

On Sunday we got to see our dog Buster again for the first time since he went missing over 7 months ago. 2 weeks before I had Rían. 

We were all in complete shock when we saw him.. He was skin and bone and had aged so much in the short space of time.

He had apparently been going from home to home being taken care of bit obviously not very well, going by his condition.. He looked so sad. But delighted to see us. He kept trying to give me his paw like he used always do.. But he was too weak to get his paw up properly. We knew he was in a bad way.. 

He hopped right into my dad's van and we were set on our way home.. 

For the next 2 nights we couldn't take him to see a vet because of the bank holiday so he spent his time resting and eating every few hours.. But he couldn't keep his food down. 

When he went to the vet he wasn't very hopeful for Buster and sure enough the next morning we got a call saying that he had kidney failure, was suffering, and needed to be put to sleep. 

Each one of us cried.. I cried for about half an hour but I had to take Rían to get his vaccines so I had to pull myself together.. I was like a vombie I don't even remember the conversation I had with the nurses.. 

At lunch time we all headed in to say our final goodbye to our best friend.. He would have been 12 next June 2nd. 

I was distraught all I could do was hug him and cry into his fur. I'm crying right now going through it all again. I've never met such a sweet gentle dog. He was always there for us. This was our time to be there for him. 

I hoped he knew he was loved in the end and that him going missing wasn't deliberate and we didn't want him to struggle through the last few months of his life.. I just wanted to hold him forever...

We left and all didn't say one word on the ride home.. All of us were heartbroken.. We lost our dog.. And finally had him back only to loose him again so soon and this time there was no hope of seeing him again...

I am so sorry for the morbidity of this blog post but it is the reason I havnt written a single post all week.. I just couldn't even open my blogger.. 

Everything will be back to normal now starting with Ríans 7 month update tomorrow! 

Bye for now! 

MommaKatie xo. 

Generation Cryo

I see an ad on MTV for this programme "generation Cryo" and it just scares me... 

I mean I struggle on a daily bases to find common ground with my full blood brother who has been around long before I was born and everyday since. 

How do these people find a bond with their many many MANY siblings?!

By the way they go on about it in the ad it's like their lives will never be complete until they find each and every on of their " half" siblings and make dramatic meetings with all of them. 

How American is all I thought seeing the ad. 

Who better than to make a mountain out of a molehill than the Americans?! 

I mean.. There is a reason their sperm donor father donated sperm, never to see the outcomes(for money) and didn't just go ahead and have 15 kids and raise them (costing lots of money) 

I just will never be surprised by what Americans think is good tv again... 

But good look to them all the same... Siblings are great!!! Fights over tv, food, parents favouritism multiplied by 15.. Wow What a blast!!

OOTD & family day out.

Heart print shirt - New Look

Cardigan - New look

High waisted jeans - Primark

Shoes - Light grey Toms

Bracelets - Silver Alex & Ani bangles

Nail varnish - Dark navy

Iphone cover - Primark (glow in the dark! :P)

Here is what Rian wore:

Denim shirt - Primark

Navy chinos - Next

Tshirt - Ted Baker in Debenhams.

It was also quite sunny and Rian was going to a confirmation of one of his second cousins! They were all playing outside in the sun so he put on his sun hat! 

My cutie pie! :) 

Today was a busy day, involving loads of children under 5 and I am now exhausted!!... Rian is asleep on his tummy upstairs.. His new favourite position :) I am off to go catch some z's myself right now!! 

But first, let me show you a selfie.. haha

GoodNight,

MommaKatie xo.