Career struggle

I'm nearly 21. I've been out of school for 2 whole years. I've done a year of a course I hated, had a son and now I'm finding myself still none the wiser about what I want to do for the rest of my life! 

Part of me feels I would be happier in a more artistic job.. Make up artistry? 

Then I think, well, I wouldn't mind being a counsellor for young people who find themselves struggling like I have at some points in my life.  

Or do I want to be a secondary school teacher? 

Nurse?

Something in I.T? 

I seem to get excited about things and change my mind so fast. 

After just one year of college I found it was so hard and thinking of doing a 3-4 year course right now, with a child, makes me cringe! I don't think I could do it! I'm so not academic it's crazy. I hate the sight of books and hate taking notes and learning off things to just slash it all out on an exam and forget it a day later. I hate it. It doesn't excite me. But what choice do I have really?! I can't not work for the rest of my life. 

I'll let you know if I make up my mind any time soon

MommaKatie xo. 

Brother Immigrating

So this morning at half 3 the whole family said goodbye to my only brother Ian. He's gone to Autralia on a one year visa with the hopes of getting sponsorship to stay on longer within that year.
Now this isnt the first time he's gone for such a long period of time. About 4-5 years ago he did a year in Oz and then a year in New Zealand. This made it all the harder to say goodbye this time around, cause we knew how much we would miss him and how going away for a year could turn into a much longer period of time.
Its especially hard at times like Christmas. He missed 3 Christmas's the las time he was away and they were never the same. I was practically an only child!

It is probably the best thing he could do for himself though! He loves working in construction and has a lot of carpentry abilities and is an amazing stone mason, well not one who has trained full term, but a course done or not, his work speaks for itself!!
There's no work is the areas he likes here in Ireland. Theres no work anywhere here really! Only in I.T it seems and that wasnt him. I had to show him how to use facebook once upon a time.
It's sad that people have to go so far from their family and friends just to be able to find a job in something they enjoy.. and not just a job at a call centre or stacking shelves.

As hard as it is for us, and especially for him, not getting to see Rian's first birthday, I do wish him all the best and hope he doesnt find himself back here, or in any trouble anytime soon!

These things just have to be done. :'(

MommaKatie xo.

First toot!!!

Rían got his first tooth in the last few days! It's just popped up out of his gum! It's the cutest thing ever! It makes his smile all the more adorable!! :-) 

And the best part is, he has only had a few cranky moments.. Especially one day last week but he slept a lot that day, so it wasn't anything major! Poor pet! 

Rían has a new cousin too! Well my first cousin had a baby and he is 7.5 months younger than Rían. We all went to see him, Rían ignored him completely! 

Nicholas was only a few days old when we saw him and oh my god, he is TINY compared to Rían! He was the same weight as Rían when he was born, but I think Nicholas has way smaller feet and hands than Rían did.. But I don't know.. I've forgotten him being that small and feeble! You also forget how long they sleep haha! 

That's the latest update on Rían! He's growing so so fast it's exciting but scary too.. He will never be this small again! 

MommaKatie xo. 

VOTE FOR ME PLEASE

Everyone PLEASE vote for Rian!!!!

To win The Baby of the Year 2014 and be in with the chance to win 5,000 please vote for Rian. You can vote once a minute so keep on voting here:

VOTE FOR ME <-- click here

I dont just want to win the money, even though that would be great to add to Rian's college/car fund (I dont plan on pushing him into college if he doesnt want to!)
It would also be a great accomplishment. People are always saying how adorable he is and I have been told loads of times to enter him in competitions! :) This one is with The Sunday World.

Please vote and thank you from Rian!! :)

MommaKatie xo.

OOTD

I cropped a lot of this pic so I'm guessing thats why its crap quality! 

Anyways!

Powder pink crop jumper/top- Topshop (sale)

High waisted grey jeans - Topshop 

Matt black leather sandals- Birkenstock

I love the textured patterns to this jumper! It's so comfy and light!

High waisted jeans are great for making us girls with NO asses look like we got a little junk in the trunk!! :P 

However if you do have a big posterior they can make it look HUGE.. Sorry haha

Minimal make-up and hair styling today! So tired! Need to go to the Doctor to get my bloods done soon! There's no way this tiredness/weakness is normal! I have had low iron levels all my life so unless they have dropped to ZERO there must be something else going on! :/

Rian just woken up from his nap right now! His tshirt says ''Little man'' on it! It's from Next Baby! :)

I got most of what I'm wearing today in Dublin and now i realise I never did a Haul from Dublin blog yet! I'll get working on that soon! Ciao! 

MommaKatie xo.

7 months old

Rían is 7 months and 2 weeks old!! It's been a busy 2 weeks so I've only gotten around to doing this update now!

Here he is! A little scamp getting bigger and bolder by the day!! I miss him being a small baby but seeing him growing and changing everyday is great too! 

Rian now sleeps 12-13 hours in his own cot, in his own bedroom! :) It's great! I get my room back and better sleep for both of us! I do miss him coming into my bed though! wah! :( but I know its for the better.

He still eats what he did when he was six months more or less. He does get a more textured dinner though, made by the same brand as always! He nibbles on slices of soft pears and liga too though! He loves his fruit!

He is in size 6-9 mostly however some items have been as big as 12 months! But like Ive said all along.. It really depends on the brand/style of clothing! Dungarees always have to be a bigger than usual size! Cause of his long torso! :)

New things:
He has been sitting up by himself a lot longer than last month, hes kind of finding his balance!
He is reaching out a lot more and protests if he cant get something he see's and wants haha!
That is just it too.. he is crying for things now.. He has finally realised if he cries he will more than likely get his own way! Like all babies do! :)

I still dont know how long or how much Rian weighs and I havnt known since he was 4 months old. His next checkup isnt until he is 8 months old. He will be weighed at that! His development will be checked too just to make sure, although I'm certain he is just fine!
I do have a small concern about his arm strength.. He doesnt seem to pull himself up unaided and he always gets his arms caught underneath him when he rolls over and it frustrates him.
A friend also was telling me abou their 8 month old nephew who is now pulling himself up in his cot in the mornings and starting crawling.. Neither of which Rian will even attempt to do! So I will be mentioning that. I am aware all babies develope differently at different rates but I will mention it to be safe!

Here are a few more pictures of the small man during his 6-7th month on earth! :)

Out enjoying the first warm, sunny day of the year! 

In his new big boy car seat!! :-) 

Loves watching people coming and going from the sofa! :-) 

That's it now.. Until next month! Bye! :)

MommaKatie xo.

Weekend in Dublin!

So I'm not actually spending a full weekend in Dublin! Myself and my mother came up early Friday and leave again late Saturday but this will be the first time I'm away from Rían for more than one night!! I already miss him so much and Friday isn't even over! 

I see other babies his age and just long to see his happy little face! Love him so much!! 

Anyway we came up to get some shopping done.. I wasn't too sure what I was looking for.. I knew I needed jeans and shoes and of course some new Alex and ani! 

Today I got Rían loads of stuff and myself a pair of high waisted jeans and crop top in river island! I'll do a blog post showing everything I got when I get home! 

Here's what I wore today! 

Cardigan- primark 

Top- New look

Jeans- primark 

Shoes- toms in schuh 

Bracelets- Alex and ani! 

We are staying in The Morgan hotel it's very pretty kinda funky! 

Reception is a big crazy looking! There's a great cocktail bar too! Unfortunetely I won't be sampling any!! Wah! 

I'm going to go and try and sleep now! 

This hotel is located in the middle of temple bar! and it's Friday night! God help us!! 

Goodnight,

MommaKatie xo. 

Tough Time

So I havnt blogged all last week. Me and my family had an awful rollarcoaster emotional week.

On Sunday we got to see our dog Buster again for the first time since he went missing over 7 months ago. 2 weeks before I had Rían. 

We were all in complete shock when we saw him.. He was skin and bone and had aged so much in the short space of time.

He had apparently been going from home to home being taken care of bit obviously not very well, going by his condition.. He looked so sad. But delighted to see us. He kept trying to give me his paw like he used always do.. But he was too weak to get his paw up properly. We knew he was in a bad way.. 

He hopped right into my dad's van and we were set on our way home.. 

For the next 2 nights we couldn't take him to see a vet because of the bank holiday so he spent his time resting and eating every few hours.. But he couldn't keep his food down. 

When he went to the vet he wasn't very hopeful for Buster and sure enough the next morning we got a call saying that he had kidney failure, was suffering, and needed to be put to sleep. 

Each one of us cried.. I cried for about half an hour but I had to take Rían to get his vaccines so I had to pull myself together.. I was like a vombie I don't even remember the conversation I had with the nurses.. 

At lunch time we all headed in to say our final goodbye to our best friend.. He would have been 12 next June 2nd. 

I was distraught all I could do was hug him and cry into his fur. I'm crying right now going through it all again. I've never met such a sweet gentle dog. He was always there for us. This was our time to be there for him. 

I hoped he knew he was loved in the end and that him going missing wasn't deliberate and we didn't want him to struggle through the last few months of his life.. I just wanted to hold him forever...

We left and all didn't say one word on the ride home.. All of us were heartbroken.. We lost our dog.. And finally had him back only to loose him again so soon and this time there was no hope of seeing him again...

I am so sorry for the morbidity of this blog post but it is the reason I havnt written a single post all week.. I just couldn't even open my blogger.. 

Everything will be back to normal now starting with Ríans 7 month update tomorrow! 

Bye for now! 

MommaKatie xo. 

Generation Cryo

I see an ad on MTV for this programme "generation Cryo" and it just scares me... 

I mean I struggle on a daily bases to find common ground with my full blood brother who has been around long before I was born and everyday since. 

How do these people find a bond with their many many MANY siblings?!

By the way they go on about it in the ad it's like their lives will never be complete until they find each and every on of their " half" siblings and make dramatic meetings with all of them. 

How American is all I thought seeing the ad. 

Who better than to make a mountain out of a molehill than the Americans?! 

I mean.. There is a reason their sperm donor father donated sperm, never to see the outcomes(for money) and didn't just go ahead and have 15 kids and raise them (costing lots of money) 

I just will never be surprised by what Americans think is good tv again... 

But good look to them all the same... Siblings are great!!! Fights over tv, food, parents favouritism multiplied by 15.. Wow What a blast!!

OOTD & family day out.

Heart print shirt - New Look

Cardigan - New look

High waisted jeans - Primark

Shoes - Light grey Toms

Bracelets - Silver Alex & Ani bangles

Nail varnish - Dark navy

Iphone cover - Primark (glow in the dark! :P)

Here is what Rian wore:

Denim shirt - Primark

Navy chinos - Next

Tshirt - Ted Baker in Debenhams.

It was also quite sunny and Rian was going to a confirmation of one of his second cousins! They were all playing outside in the sun so he put on his sun hat! 

My cutie pie! :) 

Today was a busy day, involving loads of children under 5 and I am now exhausted!!... Rian is asleep on his tummy upstairs.. His new favourite position :) I am off to go catch some z's myself right now!! 

But first, let me show you a selfie.. haha

GoodNight,

MommaKatie xo.

OOTD

Top -Primark/Penneys

Jeans -Primark/Penneys

Socks -Mismatched haha! :P 

I look 5 months pregnant in this.. I'm not. 

Still pissed off over the quality of my photos lately..

So, today was an amazing day it was like a Summers day! I was in the city with my mom and Rian and picked up a few things in Penneys:

2 tshirts, bows and a glow in the dark iphone case.. Cause I am always loosing my phone in my bed at night! haha! The disney tshirt with the mickey mouse hands making a love heart symbol, I love!! Its an image I have in my tattoo idea file.. :P 

Speaking of which!!!... I booked my next tattoo today, for early next week.. I think I'm addicted? Oohh well! :)

MommaKatiexo.

DISCRIMINATION AGAINST YOUNG MOTHER!

43 houses out of 800approx on daft accept rent allowance. 

That's 5%. 

95% of houses up for rent will not accept rent allowance. 

Rent allowance is a payment from the government given to, and only to, people means tested. 

People with basically no income or enough savings. 

Not everyone on the dole will get rent allowance.. Far from it. 

Hmph. I'm so pissed off right now..
So lately I have been thinking more about moving out of home.. For many reasons.. Like my mother driving me mad.. And the fact I just need to get on with my life in general! But it's not that easy!! Obviously I cant afford rent by myself.. No way could I.. I would be left with about 200euro a month to live on.. with a baby.. Dont think so!! So, because of this, I would be on rent allowance.. An allowance I'm intitled to from the government to help out with my rent costs! I think they pay about 2/3 of the cost! depends on your situation, how many children you have etc... BUT.. Nearly every house up for rent has ''no rent allowance'' just casually thrown in at the end.. All except for the nearly inhabitable few.. Yock..
I mean, I'm not a slob? I'm a tidy person. I'm polite and quiet and respectful of where I live.. It's how I was brought up. You would still get your money at the end of each month? What's the big problem?
Just because I dont have much money? People with money can be awful too.. People with money arnt any better at living in your house than I am?
I dont get it. It's discrimination and it shouldnt matter how you get your rent money, you should just take it.
I'm a single mother with a very quiet, pleasant baby in a small town.. I'm not a single mother with 5 unruley, disrespectful children and 5 different varieties of animals..
SO ANNOYING. I shouldnt have to live in a run-down shack just because I need financial help.
I hope you sleep well, Landlord's.. With your big bank accounts.. Discriminating against us less well off.

OOTD BABY!

Uh I can't get over the cuteness of Ríans outfit today. It's converse brand. I got it in tkmaxx for about 18euro!!!

I love converse stuff for babies! He has a basketball outfit by Converse too. Both are super cute! 

I love the colours in this! All the different coloured well known Converse high top runners going around in a circle! I love colourful clothes on Rían! You would find a lot of baby clothes for boys too be blue! And while I LOVE blue on him, a change is nice too! 

There's a track pants to the outfit as well with the Converse label on it! 

I just love Tkmaxx for baby/little boy clothes! You can get brand names for so cheap and very cute things like velvet sleepsuits for the little babies and full outfits for older babies like Rían :-) I highly recommend a trip there! You will not leave empty handed! Well.. Unless you don't have a baby or don't know a baby you can buy anything for. 

Here's what I wore today.. Nothing nice really just super easy cause I'm STILL sick! :-( even my hair is tied up! That's a real sign of me being very lazy!!

MommaKatie xo.

OOTD

the lighting is CRAP in my room or my phone just isnt taking good photos anymore I dunno.. The quality is awful! You cant even see what I'm wearing properly..and my lips look blue?.. I did leave it kinda late to take the pic I guess.. oops! I was waiting for Rian to come home from his dads and had to snap these real quick!

Fluffy jumper - Primark

High waisted jeans - Primark

Shoes - Light grey Toms. 

Nails - Color Show by Maybelline in Coral. 

You can see it better here kind of. Cropped jumper & high waisted jeans are my fav!

Face of the day! ha.. My makeup was practically worn off at this point!

Hair has day-old curls/waves done with GHD. 

MommaKatie xo.

Self harm

I'm aware this blog isn't popular or anything close. I'm still too shy to share it properly on my social media sites.. Don't know why.. Maybe because I know some people will think it's a joke. I know they are just bitter out of jealous ness at the end of the day but I don't think I'm in a good enough place with myself to withstand too many jeers and criticism I suppose. 

I have done loads in the past that have made people look at me and think "wow what a psycho". I can't blame them, I would have thought the same of myself too. 

I have had to pick myself up from a few tough scenarios and carry on as if nothing ever happened and I have been ashamed of myself for a lot of the last 6 years of my life. 

I still have to see and hear of a lot of the people who never did and never will give me a second chance, who I know are in the background looking on this finding any small thing to laugh about. That's just what people do. 

I don't want this to sound like I'm pitying myself. I'm not. I know I have done wrong I will be the first to admit it. 

I have struggled with self worth for about half of my short life, if not longer! I'm only now dragging myself out of it's tight clutches! It's such a hard habit to break. 

One thing that really pisses me off is the taboo of mental illnesses. It really angers me when someone jokes about saying someone should kill themselves, or that someone is crazy for self harming or for going off the rails or acting different to this "norm". 

One thing the place I've grown up in isn't short on, is small minded people, scared to see life for what it really is for some people, a struggle!! 

Yet every one of my friends families are touched with mental illness. 

I plan on blogging more about mental illness in particular self harm because that is what I've experienced myself first hand. 

There is a huge stereotype attached to self harm and it's with good reason I suppose, it became glamourous almost to self harm.. But I, and lots others who didn't even know of this glamour, who really had a hard time are genuine sufferers not looking for attention. 

Anyway.. More on this topic and it's stupid small town stereotyping later.. Cause I gotta get some sleep!!! Haha! 

Goodnight x 

Questionable Fashion

Link to Schuh website

I think it says it all in the name..''scary super doughnuts trainer''... I mean these are just very frightening... We really have to start stepping back and asking ourselves.. Is this really okay? 

Now I know fashion/style is all about personal loves and hates of individuals but I think its got to the point now, where people will just pretend to like something to stand out from the crowd.. for attention! 

It is such a struggle to stand out of the crowd in such a massive industry with every second woman thinking themselves as fashionistas! 

I mean, I LOVE DONUTS.. but I would never wear these.. I would never spend money on them and I wouldnt even wear them if I got them for free... 

What would these even go with? You would have to be naked maybe?? I dunno.

I think these just show how things have changed. People just want to stand out no matter what the cost.. (the cost is embarrassment really)

I'm all for individuality but.. Who really can look at these and say to themselves truthfully that they are the nicest shoes they have ever set eyes on.... No way!! 

Anyway this is what I came across earlier looking for a pair of toms.. 

They are about 165 euro.. I kid you not. 

Absolute horror to pay that much for THAT mess! They have actually made me angry haha!

And if that pair of shoes wasnt horrifying enough for you..Priced aswell at 165euro.. You can have these, a more summery option:

YACK!

rant over :)

MommaKatiexo.

OOTD

Jacket - bershka

Cardigan - primark

Top - primark 

Shorts - diy. 

Here is a better look without the jacket... which I LOVE! It's got a K on it! I couldn't leave it behind! You always see those baseball style jackets with A's and B's on them. I have never seen them with K so of course I had to get it! It's very comfy and casual too! Great for this weird spring weather! 

The marvel tshirt draws the boys in haha! I just liked it! I'm not a big marvel fan but why not shur! 

The shorts are years old.. All my pants were in the wash! (Typical) and I wouldn't normally wear this on such a wet cold day but I had no choice really haha! 

I didn't do much with my day.. Just visited my cousins who are over visiting from England. Rían loves watching other young children! :) 

He is now gone off with his dad for the night so I'm off duty for the night.. Even though mothers are NEVER off duty really! I'm always there for Rían! 

I'm still feeling sick!! My throat is pretty sore now and starting to look like strep throat or tonsillitis, which I used to suffer from a lot before getting pregnant... Great it's made a comeback... Not!!! 

Have a nice weekend! :) 

MommaKatie xo. 

Flashback Friday

Munich in Germany 2010

My 3 friends and I. 

My german class went to Germany in March 2010 for 5 days! It was the most talked about thing prior to us going all the school year! It was such an experience.. We were wrecked tired from NO sleep but still motored on for the time we were there.. We stayed in a hostel on the outskirts of Munich city.. We had most fun at night with no teachers! 

This photo was taken inside of some building haha I cant remember.. I dont remember much of the places we visited, only the concentration camp.. But we didnt take photo's there obviously! 

On the same trip we visited Salzberg in Austria! I still think it is the prettiest cleanest place I've ever been! And the weather was crap! My shoes were soaked wet but I would love to go back! Such a quaint place! :)

It actually struck me a few weeks back that I havnt been out of Ireland since this trip! I NEED A HOLIDAY ASAP!! haha! 

MommaKatie xo.

Mother is Sick!

Ugh.. I feel like a bus has hit me in the head!
So far this week I have had the worst toothache pain ever.. Recovered from that.. Developed the biggest, sorest, most awkwardly placed mouth ulcer and now my glands are up and I'm certain I'm getting another visit from my old friend, Tonsilitis!! GRRR!
My head is so warm and sore I cant even think straight to write this! I also have a sore arm because of my 2 day old tattoo!
The aches and pains all over my body are getting worse and all I'm fit for is the couch!
But I have a 6 month old child who cant entertain himself just yet.. So I cant just throw myself in a heap! wah!
Right now he is having his first nap of the day and I am having my lunch! (If I can manage it!)
There really is no rest for a sick mother! And then there is the added bonus of the high likelihood that I will pass on this to Rian! So that when I am just recovering.. He will be entering the hard part!
I just want to go to bed for 5-7 days and be done with it! I have 2 more days until Rian's dad can have him leaving me with a night off! Something tells me this wont be much help!
I'm such a big self-pitier! haha! But if I dont.. No body will!
I didnt feel much like getting dressed nicely today so I'm not gonna bother doing an OOTD.. 

Lets all hope this will pass asap! (or just disappear altogether) :)

MommaKatie xo.

Christening Day!

Rían in his christening outfit! He was so cute rolling around in it I could have cried!! 

The romper and boots are both from debenhams occasion range! The shawl was made by one of my mothers good friends! The bib was made in The Baby Shop in Wilton shopping centre! But I have seen them on sale in loads of other baby shops too! 

This is the two of us before going to the church! (We were running late!) the bright red wall is in my mothers room! You can't see the dress I wore here but I wore this one:

A pastel mint coloured skater style dress from Topshop! The heels I got months ago before Christmas in Penneys/Primark! 

I had tan on.. Because no body needs to witness my lily white legs this time of the year.. I use St.Moritz in dark! To be honest I don't see much difference between the medium and dark. It's only 5euro I think and available in dunnes, boots and Penneys to name a few! :-P

This was my make up for the day! It was pretty simple because I didn't want to go too dark on the eyes being that it was a religious event I was going to haha! 

Foundation - MAC 

Bronzer - boujoir 

Eyeshadow - naked 2 palette

Eyelashes - eylure fake strip eyelashes! 

Lipstick (not on in this photo) - rimmel in Asia! 

Just a few selfies I took when all the dinner and family had gone and before going out that night to a friends 21st! I love wearing fake eyelashes even though my own eyelashes are pretty full and long! 

I have just noticed I have weird veins or lines in my forehead haha! - eww! 

All in all it was a lovely day! The sun was shining, the priest was lovely, Rían was his usual happy self and he got a lot of gifts! I need to open a post office account for him now to start saving the money he gets at times like these for when he will really need it! And to stop me from spending it all on toys/cute clothes! Sigh! 

MommaKatie xo. 

Tattoo Time!

Today I got my very first tattoo! 

I got it done in Tattoo Zoo in Cork City by a guy called Chris.. Or Con.. Uh.. So bad with names!! 

I got 2 paw prints! One is of a dogs paw and the other of a cat. 

I choose that for my dog and cat who both passed in the last 7 months. They were both childhood pets of mine. Both were 12 years old. 

So much has happened in the last year! Having Rían and loosing both of my childhood pets (best friends) makes it feel as if I've had to grow up so fast! I've nothing left that I had a year ago! But I don't regret any of it. Of course I was distraught when Buster (my dog) went cause I was 9 months pregnant and had always pictured him meeting Rían! He was such a gentle loving dog I knew he would have been fond of Rían! Ugh I'm going to cry!!...

Anyway about 8 weeks ago Tibby my cat had to be put to sleep because he had cancer all over his body! He had been poorly for about a year and went through a few surgeries but it had spread too much and he eventually stopped eating. 

I was always a big cat person and adored tibby throughout my life! There was never a day went by without giving him a cuddle! 

It was such an end of an era when both passed so close to each other. 

I only hope they are together up in animal heaven ignoring each other like before :-) 

Here is the tattoo: 

A lot of my family don't seem to find of it! But I don't care! Tattoos are such a personal thing I don't think anyone can comment on what you find appropriate to put on your body! They arnt great tattoo lovers as it is and don't even understand the feelings behind it! 

I would definitely get another one and I plan to get one on my opposite arm to cover up some scars! 

I was unsure if it would be possible for me to tattoo over my scars but I asked the tattoo artist today and he said they were very old and faded and would be great for covering over! So I must get thinking about that one, cause it will be much bigger than the one I just got! :-)

MommaKatie xo

OOTD Style Saturday

Leggings - Primark

Top - H&M

Cardigan - Primark

Denim jacket - Primark

Bracelets - Alex & Ani and friendship bracelets

Shoes - Toms in light grey!

Today I'm getting a haircut.. Wah!! The most emotional thing for me EVER is getting my hair cut.. I am emotionally attached to every single cm of hair I have its redic! I know I'll look better after a cut but it just tears me apart haha! 

I have been let down by so many hairdressers in the past I really dont trust them with my hair.. When I was younger I had the most amazing long hair.. Down to my waist.. Went to get it TRIMMED and came out with hair 6-8 inches shorter I was distraut for months! It never grew back as long and full at that again!

I'm just going to get a few layers and my weird chunky side fringe sorted out really!! It's badly overdue! 

Here is the before and I'll put up the after in my next blog! If I can face taking a picture of it!! :O 

So much gruige!! (Irish for hair people!!) :P 

MommaKatie xo.

Learner Driver Struggles

Ok.. So I have been displaying the aul L plate on my lickle car for over a year now.. Yes I know that is time enough to do my test blah de blah!... Well.. I have set one test.. and the experience of that has absolutely terrified me out of trying to resit it anytime soon.
I consider myself a good enough driver! I'm super safe haha! I do have a pretty small car.. Well.. It's a citroen c3.. A 1.2 litre.. But a big 1.2 if you get me.. And I am perfected at driving it.. It's dodgey gear stick.. Dodgey central locking.. Dodgey everything really! I have NEVER hit another car.. Stationary or moving.. But I think this is down to me being so aware that every other driver out there WITHOUT L plates, is in fact, completely unaware of the rules of the road!
I have lost count of the amount of times a bigger car (nearly always a big jeep) has pulled out DANGEROUSLY close infront of me. Wether it be on a roundabout or a junction where I have the right away.. ANYWHERE they dont care.. This happens so much now that I expect cars to pull out infront of me at the last minute and brace myself for it. It's so anoying that they think it's ok to scare the life out of me (on one occasion I had to stop suddenly)
HOW DO THESE PEOPLE STILL HAVE LICENCES.
On another occasion I was on a bypass from Mahon Point to Ballincollig and a car, in the queue to go off one of the exits, pulled out right infront of me.. DRIVING ON A BYPASS.. like 75mph.. I had to jam on the breaks.. The car behind me flew into the back of me.. And the car that pulled out infront of me drove off slowly into the night..
After that accident I pulled over to see the damage done to my car, as did the driver who went into me..
SHE asked me what had happened as she didnt even see the car that pulled infront of me it was so close..
Anyway my car only had a small dent, as did her's and as we were both similar age and both has small, already dented cars we didnt care too much and went our separate ways.
I mean.. What was the person in the car that caused that accident thinking?!?!
''I see an L plate in a small car coming, I'll pull out infront of them!'' It's not like we have the skills to avoid you!! We are LEARNING to drive, not learning to AVOID ye ''licenced'' drivers.
On another day I was coming up to a roundabout.. I was in the right lane.. The car infront of me was hesitating between lanes but choose the lane to the right.. When it came to going onto the roundabout the car decided to cut infront of me to come into my lane, AS I was also driving onto the roundabout.. I put my hand on the horn and they narrowly avoided me.. She (it was a woman, shocker) would have definetely hit me, drivers side door and wing, if I hadnt beeped.
It really is like I'm learning how to avoid the jackasses on the road, rather than how to drive. Driving is easy. It's the many situations you'll find yourself in with other drivers that will test you.

As for the test I took last December..
It was school time..
It was Ballyphehane..
It was up the road to the school with cars coming from all angles..
It was lollipop ladies..
It was children running out between cars
AND IT WAS ALL UPHILL..
Oh.. And I had never been there before in my life!!
It would have been fine.. If it wasnt for the extra 1 million cars on the tight roads at the time.
Everything was fine.. My hillstart.. My 3 point turn.. etc..
BUT.. I was ''too close'' to the cars going up the school road AND something about the clutch which I didnt properly take in cause I was so furious about the first thing.. Anyway.. It's MY decision if I want to wear out MY clutch.. the money for a new one will come out of MY wallet and its NOT dangerous..
I was crying with anger that day. 2 months after having Rian. Ugh..

I am gettin better and better at driving (avoiding dickheads) and I do plan on doing another test this Summer..Just because.. Well.. You have to! For insurance!

UGH UGH UGH
Ok.. My rant is over...
Leave a comment if you are an anger Learner driver with your experiences of other so called licenced drivers causing havock!

MommaKatie xo.

OOTD Primark & Tommy Hilfiger

Denim Jacket - Primark

Skirt - Primark

Scarf - H&M in Munich

Black boots - Primark 

Im really not pleased with the quality of my pictures recently.. Which is strange cause my camera is brill and they look fine on my phone but when they are uploaded they are fuzzy and dull? I dunno.

Navy top - Tommy Hilfiger

Necklace - Dogeared

Nail varnish - Maybelline color show in Winter Baby. (white)

Wasnt getting up to much today only a trip over town to pick up some bits for Rian's Christening Sunday. Got a new new nail varnishes, bronzer, tan etc.. The essentials really! ha..

This outfit is super comfy and 90% from Primark/Penneys! :) 

You can see my new ''bobble'' water bottle. I love it! It makes rotten tap water taste so clear! Very handy size for my handbag too. It fits in with Rian's bits and bobs! Highly recommend investing in one! Theyre like 12euro available in Home Store and More and Debenhams anyway.. Probably elsewhere too! :)

MommaKatie xo.

TBT Throw back Thursday

This is the first ever picture of Rian Andrew Moynihan Hurley. (A mouthful, i know.)
Well actually there were a few pictures before this that my mom took of him but they were all crappy! haha. They were blurred. This is the first one she took with my phone. I had the Nokia Lumia back then.

I.LOVE.THIS.PHOTO.

His eyes were so big and bright from the very beginning. :) His fingers were very thin and long.. So were his arms and legs. I thought he would never fatten up.. But he did eventually! Now he has chubby little legs and arms and a big milk tummy :) 

Rian weighed 8lb 4ozs. That is considered big for a first time baby AND I am not the tallest or broadest of women.. The midwives were pretty surprised. I had been told at research scans I took part in that he would be around 7lb! How wrong were they!? I have heard that they are not reliable at all, at measuring the size of the baby.. However they did say he would have long legs and he sure did! :) 

This picture is 6 months old now.. and I just remember thinking even 6 months before that, when I was 3 months pregnant.. That the day will never come! Time really does fly but you only really notice when you look back on something! I'm so blessed! :) 

MommaKatie xo.

Postpartum body #2

I did a blog 2 months ago, 4 months after Rian was born about how my body changed and how it was after those 4 months.. Well here is an update for 6 months post baby! :)

Ignore my no makeup face! I had a busy day of house cleaning (hence the piles of sorting to do on my bed!)

Weight:
I now weigh 52.5kg. 116pounds. 8 stone 3 pounds.
This is the lightest I've been since I was probably 15. It's redic!
I dont think many women are ever truely happy with their bodies. I still would like to be much more toned but I will say I am so much more confident with myself now. I just dont care about weight as much as before. I hate it now when I hear girls talking about being fat when they weigh like 6 stone! It actually angers me.
I have never been one to eat a super healthy diet.. I love a good donut.. Or a bag of Tayto's.. Or both!
I'm just one of those people that doesnt really have to care too much about what they eat and I'm not afraid to say it. I'm not ashamed of it haha! I'm proud of it :)
Dont get me wrong I do feel for those people, girls in particular, that have troubles with their weight, even when following a strict diet and exercise routine! I think it's very unfair really...that everything that taste so great is crap for us!
Sooo.. Thats the weight part of this update covered.. All in all, I couldnt ask for any more.

My check leggings and fluffy black jumper are penneys/primark.

Skin:
My skin has not been great at all. I had amazing skin up until about 2 months after Rian was born. Now it is good, I guess.. But I've had a taste of near perfection and I want it back!!
I get a few small spots here and there, no biggie really. My skin is also pretty dull at times. Especially around the eyes! (probably all that lack of long morning lie ins!!)

Health:
My health has been pretty good! I havnt been back to the doctor about anything in months. Then again it takes me a lot to get up off my ass to go to see her. I still have bad sinus problems but I dont even notice them anymore.
Over the last few days I have had a few migraine attacks again. I havnt had them for years it's so weird. I had one attack alright when I was about 2-3 months pregnant aswell.
The attacks start with blurred vision.. like a burred spot in the centre of my vision and I cant read properly and find it impossible to concentrate on words or string sentences together! Then I get tingling and numbness in one of my hands (it changes).. an hour later.. MAJOR migraine.. Cant lift my head for hours... And the next day.. Feel hungover! Ugh.
I think I will be going to the doctor to be checking this out soon!

Talk soon!

MommaKatie xo.

TMI Tuesday

Let's give this a whirrrrl!

WARNING: 

TOO MUCH INFORMATION!!!!!

1: What are you wearing? Topshop jeans, Topshop cami top and Primark cardy.. Oh and bambi socks :) 

2: Ever been in love? Not even close! Well, except for Rian.. But he's my son! 

3: Ever had a terrible breakup? What defines terrible? I've had guys cheat on me but it's never really got to me too much cause yano.. Look at Q2! :P 

4: How tall are you? 5'4''.. But I think that has changed since having Rian cause everyone says I seem shorter and all my friends seem taller so I'm gonna have to check this out! 

5: How much do you weigh? 52.5kg.. I think that's like 8stone 3pounds? 

6: Any tattoos? No not yet. I have a gazillion ideas but never do anything about getting them done haha. Soon though! :) 

7: Any piercings? Just my ears. I never wear earrings they annoy me.. I had my nose pierced at one point about 5 years ago but that situation got NASTY and it had to come out! (infected piercings are not fun!) 

8: OTP? Me & Rian :) :)

9: Favorite Show? ORANGE IS THE NEW BLACK. I watched this like a month ago and still having withdrawls I will drop dead when the next season comes out! DROP.DEAD. Girls is great too I got season 1 on dvd from Rian(his dad) for Mothers day.. Watched it all in one night... Must find the next 2 seasons online now..

10: Favorite brands? Primark, h&m, Topshop, GAP.... endless list. 

11: Something you miss? SLEEPING for 12+ hours.

12: Favorite song? True colours - Cyndi Lauper.. Mostly cause Rian loves it.. It's on the Sky ad at the moment and he always stops and stares at the TV when it's on :) 

13: How old are you? 20. 21 on July 10th. Mark that date now ;) :(

14: Zodiac sign? Cancer. Look up the traits of a cancerian and I am ALL of them. Its creepy. 

15: Quality you look for in a partner? Oh boy. I am SO picky. Men who are not obsessed with the gym and bragging about themselves are the best. Being a gentleman is the best :) 

16: Favorite Quote? I have so many quotes on my pinterest its a problem. haha I cant pick just one! 

17: Favorite actor? Obsessed with Cillian Murphy. 

18. Favourite colour? Blue... I think... Yeah, blue. :)

19: Loud music or soft? Depends. 

20: Where do you go when you’re sad? For a cuddle from the bestest baby in the galaxy.. :) 

21: How long does it take you to shower? About 20 minutes. Yano yourself.. 2 minutes actually shampooing and washing and 18 minutes contemplating the meaning of life and such. 

22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? Probably a lot longer than it should. I would need an hour. Make up and picking out clothes is tough!! 

23: Ever been in a physical fight? Freshers week 2012 I got a black eye with no recollections how! haha! Me and a friend were also targeted in a teen disco one night.. i got pushed to the ground, she got pushed against a wall... It was all so unnessecary.. haha:)

24: Turn on? Tall, broad shoulders, not skinny, blue eyes, SENSE OF HUMOUR.

25: Turn off? Self obsession. So many guys now think the way to impress a girl is to talk about how much they go to the gym and love themselves. So yuck. Skinny jeans on men. Long hair. Hipster style makes me cringe for them. 

26: The reason I joined Blogspot? I have nothing else to be doing with my spare time at home so I thought I would start blogging about my life as a young single mother and offer my experience to other women in the same position! :) 

27: Fears? Ladybirds. Crashes. Wasting a talent by never realising I have it until its too late. haha

28: Last thing that made you cry? A fight with someone who really knows how to piss me off.. Verbal not physical! :P 

29: Last time you said you loved someone? To Rian.. This morning.. :) 

30: Meaning behind your Blogspot Name? YoungyMommy?.. Kind of explains itself really, duh. I'm a young mother haha! 

31: Last book you read? The Art of Racing in the Rain... Cried multiple times. Doggies<3 

32: The book you’re currently reading? Gone Girl.. Although it's taking me forever..

33: Last show you watched? KKWTK! Keeping Up with the Kardashians!.. a guilty little pleasure! :P  :)

34: Last person you talked to? My dad.

35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted? Last person I texted was a friend, about meeting up this week! 

36: Favorite food? anything that involves pasta. 

37: Place you want to visit? Australia. (hopefully next year)

38: Last place you were? Outside of Ireland? Germany.. 5 years ago (oh.my.god I need a holiday) 

39: Do you have a crush? No. Right now men repulse me.. I think it's all Tinder's fault. :)

40: Last time you kissed someone? A few weeks ago. A frog that did not turn into a Prince! sigh.:P

41: Last time you were insulted? Probably last week.. Or yesterday.. The lighting in Topshops changing rooms insulted me BIG time! :( haha

42: Favourite flavour of sweet? Red. haha. Red is a valid flavour when it comes to sweets! Red is always best. 

43: What instruments do you play? Eh, none. Oh wait! The recorder/tin whistle... awks..

44: Favourite piece of jewellery? My Alex and Ani bangles. 

45: Last sport you played? next question...

46: Last song you sang? True colours.. I sang along to the Sky ad :) 

47: Favourite chat up line? Telling a guy he is handsome has always worked.. in the past.. now I dont bother with men at all.. #independantwoman #dontneednoman haha

48: Have you ever used it? Yes.. I'm a charmer :P 

49: Last time you hung out with anyone? Eh.. Hung out with my mother shopping yesterday! (that sounds sad) :P 

Hope whoever actually read this far enjoyed my TMI... :) 

Peace! 

MommaKatiexo.